Ok so in the past few months what have we learned: not to date players (check), realise some home truths about love and family (check) and realise life is what you make of it (check and check). What a time, it seems change is everywhere we look from the Global Financial Crisis AKA ‘Honey I shrunk our investment portfolio’ to personal changes and big decisions. I am not sure, but after the uber-crap year that was ‘2000 and hate’ there was a general feeling in my friends that things have to change and the first place is with yourself. I took the opportunity towards the end of the year to revaluate all that was going wrong in my life and try to do something about it, so I started therapy.
I was at a crossroads, I was unhappy and I felt that I had to be the reason my relationships were not going well, and I am not talking about just love life but everything. I was unhappy and felt as if life was closing in on me. So I started seeing this lovely lady who resembled a South African garden gnome and at first i was resistant, I wanted to focus just on my love life but as you may know nothing is out of bounds in therapy. Every old hurt and hideous memory is dragged screaming from the trunk, shaken off and given the once over. The most amazing thing is how you build you life around ideas and concepts that were totally untrue or ridiculous, even childish. That’s no surprise as we learn a lot of this when we are a child. But mostly the focus was on my Dad, who I never knew and how this effected everything I did and decided. Unbelievable and crushing but ultimately rewarding beyond measure. I can’t describe how much my life changed after that, I started opening up to everyone around me, meeting new people and becoming someone i liked and who was open to life not away hiding from it.
Anyway I am not going to wax psychological on you, but to understand the past few months I could not ignore the life changing elephant in the room.
So... now that’s out the way, we can get back to business. Random pictures, rambling diatribes, and general rants.
Happy New Year BTW, and it’s good to be back. I hope the dog with the wheels for legs is still reading my blog.
