Hoping for a change...

I am going to get an hour long massage at SpaChakra at Blue Hotel in Woolloomooloo, a gift from my boss for workin hard. Have a going away after, not sure how i will scrape up for that! I may be a bit floppy.

I have had a really bad day, Last week i found out that the person who put a false profile using my pictures in a gay dating website, was up to his (or her) old tricks again. I complained to the site, provided my ID and they supposedly took it down, but i looked again today and they we back up. I feel like the website are not taking this seriously. Can they not block this person or black list the pics?

Obviously not. My friend Alex said i should take it as a complement, that someone has taken all this time to set up this fake profile. That's true to a certain extent and bless Alex for looking on the bright side of things, but its awful nevertheless as every second look from a guy , i think think "Argh!" and that they think I like humiliation sex, Gloria Gaynor and scrap-booking (?!). At least the site does not say i have HIV anymore, that was horrible and just wrong.

The really odd thing is that the pics on the site are from years ago and i do not have any idea where they came from, so it makes me think its a spurned ex or a Facebook leak. I doubt it was the ex (s), not that i am all 'skippy-ole'-lollypop' with them but i doubt they would do something as vile. Facebook is a safer bet, but some of the pics used are not even on my Facebook. Confusing. Anyway i have heightened my security on my Facebook page, so only friends and the pope can see my pics.

When did i become this person, who has such bad luck?

Please wish me some good karma or Mojo to give this bad run of luck, a permanent flick. Have a good weekend x

'All i want for xmas is my front tooth'

Well, i have bad karma or something this year. Just as i am getting over the hospital event, i was sitting down this Sunday to a tasty BLT and my fake front tooth fell out! I was horrified, in a sub hysterical tizzy i hence forth found a 24/7 dentist and went and paid $850 to have the tooth fixed back into the yellow stump. I then found out the problem was much bigger than a bit of super glue, the issue is i have an infection in my gum due to a bad root canal when it first happened. You see it was 7 years ago in NYC and i slipped on ice and smashed out my tooth. I was living in London and sans insurance, so i found a dentist who stabilised the tooth for my flight home. Unfortunately it was not done well and i have ended up now with an abscess. So now i am looking at out about $4000 worth of work to clean out my tooth, new root canal, reconstruction of the post and a new porcelain cap. Suffice to say i was quite upset, but now realise i have to do it or my tooth will keep popping out to say hello to my sandwiches. So i am going to see a dentist tomorrow for a second opinion and search for dentists with long term payment plans so i can get it done ASAP.

Bit sucky but hey at least i do not have a brain aneurysm!

When Brains Attack!

As i have alluded to I had a major health scare about three weeks ago, I was admitted to hospital just before and again during Easter. I was training and had just started it, when I got what was the worse headache I have ever had in the front of my head. It was like an explosion. Suffice to say I could not stand and my balance was all screwed up. So I went off to hospital and was admitted for CT scans and a lumbar puncture (which was horrible, where they put a huge needle in your spine). The doctors thought I may have had a brain aneurysm and needed to test me for all and sundry to make sure was not going to drop dead.

I was let out of hospital the next day but went straight back in two days later as one in 100 people have adverse reactions to the lumbar puncture. Including inability to stand, ultra sensitivity to light, hideous nausea and the most horrible headaches ever. So I was admitted to the Neurology ward for three days. They had to do an small procedure (with another huge needle) on my back to fix the problem but then I had to do heaps of other tests including one with radioactive iodine which felt like I had pissed myself.

It was so scary but I did not realise how much until I got out and just was devastated due to the stress and worry. It was not pretty.
The neurology ward was just horrific, I was directly opposite a guy who was a vegetable and had half his skull missing. He use to wail and moan like some animal into the middle of the night. At that point they did not know what was wrong with me so I was terrified I would end up like him.
They finally figured out it was some type of reaction to stress and over exercise, causing all the blood to rush to my head and cause what my neurologist called a “thunderclap” headache and the reason I had been turned into a human pin cushion is that the symptoms I had matched a sub orbital aneurysm (AKA possible killer bleed).

So after all that scariness it was a rather simple explanation, but it has taken me ages to recover. I lost about 6-8 kgs, had panda eyes and was quite shell shocked and emotional for a while. Its only now I can exercise again and am feeling better. I went back to work too early as i had these events to finish, but i was very slow and unable to respond very fast to people and questions. It was weird, like I was wrapped in cotton wool.

So it was a really traumatising time, very lonely as well, but feel interestingly Zen afterwards now. On the bright side i was overwhelmed by the support I got from co workers and friends alike. So that is really it for me, I am just glad to be ok.

Rough week

I am been quite ill this past week and ended up in hospital being tested for some really frightening things. I am OK, have more tests but the hard core deadly stuff has been crossed off the list.

I am still dealing with the whole shock of it so forgive me if I do not write about it yet. Its still stings alot. rest assured I am fine and healthy though i have to par back my fitness program and try to manage my stress levels for a while.